Xanax, xanax, xanax…..

Xanax

The word Xanax used to make me cringe! Ughhh, I hated to say Xanax! People would ask me, your anxiety seems to be a little better, what are you doing for it? I would dread this question. I would respond I’m on new medication. Them: ooh what medication? Me: with that chocked up feeling in my throat, ummm, Xanax. That’s when the person gives you that judgmental stare, I could just feel the persons negativity. Them: you know it’s addictive, your going to become a drug addict, it’s an abused drug. Why would you even take that? Isn’t there something else you can do, go to the gym see a doctor. Umm yes I do see a doctor that’s where I got my prescription, duh. I already workout doesn’t help when my chemicals are off balance. People instantly looked down on me. So many times I would explain myself as if I owed them some reason for my decisions about my health. I would explain I tried 19 medications. Yes, 19! I stated at gentle medications, and worked my way up the scale to benzodiazepines! It’s not like I started with Xanax, I tried everything, I tried seabands, herbal remedies, cutting out caffeine even tried Ativan and klonopin. They didn’t work. Nothing worked, until Xanax, my daily anxiety cocktail consist of Xanax, vistril, Wellbutrin and pristq. All of these medication working together have helped me tremendously! Now I have no shame in saying I take Xanax! Honestly I’ve become so immune to talking about it, I tend to over share. If you take one thing away from this post, I hope that it is you should never be ashamed of taking a medication even if people give you that stare. These medications and Xanax alone have changed my life. I don’t know what I would do without it! Never let someone put you down for making a decision, that affects your health, it has nothing to do with them.

Keep fighting,

Brittany